I volunteer at a local animal shelter for a few hours every couple of weeks, and yesterday was that day for me. It may not directly translate to dollars in my bank account, but the value I take from it on a personal level, is immense, not to mention… the furry cuddles…
Not that it’s all cuddles and squealing about cute bunny rabbits (guilty). There is also an incredible amount of, well, poo.
Giving back to the world and creating positive change is a theme that threads through all of my goals, so it was good to dig in, followed by a very productive day at home, and work at night. A successful day if you ask me!
Yesterday was a busy day gearing up for the next week (at both jobs), and I collapsed in bed last night, to sleep the sleep of the motivated. That’s what I’m dubbing it. There may already be a phrase, and in fact I’m sure there is, but on this blog, we don’t worry too much about how other people are doing things.
The sleep of the motivated is the sleep you have when you have been grinding all day, have checked off everything you set out to do (and then some), and can sleep with satisfaction knowing you’ll do it all again tomorrow, and you’ll be THAT much closer to your dreams!
The last couple days I had not been myself, and when I woke up yesterday morning tired after an anxious sleep, and not feeling much better than the day before, I got fed up with myself.
Enough was enough. I don’t have time to be in a funk, and it’s not me. It was time to tackle the problem, which clearly wasn’t going away.
Initially I thought I was just overwhelmed after glancing into the abyss of everything I had decided I would accomplish. After a bit more honest digging, I realised it came down to two thoughts buried deep down:
In trying to fit everything in, I didn’t think I was spending enough time mastering my craft in my own time, and that it was going to take FOREVER to learn all there is to know, and break back into working in the industry that I love (Environmental Science)
I didn’t think I was saving enough money to accomplish the things I wanted to next year
The answers to these seem obvious right?
Spend more time studying
Spend more time working
My schedule is always packed solid, so something had got to go, or at least be downsized.
After a bit of juggling, and getting a bit ruthless with my schedule, I think I may have figured it out! As soon as I came to my new schedule, it felt like an elephant-sized weight had lifted from my shoulders! The proof will be in the pudding… (or at least tomorrow’s blog…).
Yesterday, my feelings of being anxious and overwhelmed kicked up a notch. I knew that it was a pointless waste of energy, and I needed to get my head back in the game, but it was like I was like I was doing everything in a sea of molasses.
By the time I got to my singing lesson yesterday night I felt like I was moving towards a panic attack, but pushed through the lesson, and went straight to bed when I got home.
It wasn’t that I was doing more than I usually do (because other than the gratitude journal it was pretty much business as usual), but I couldn’t shake the feeling that although I had been working hard to hit my goals daily, that it wasn’t enough.
Am I putting extra pressure on myself because of the challenge? or is it something else? Either way, I will figure it out!
If you follow my youtube channel, then you may already know that yesterday was a “head down and push through it” kind of day.
It probably didn’t help that I had a little bit of a late night, was pretty tired when I woke up, but got up and pushed through anyway. I’m glad I did, because by the time I got home from work, I was still tired, overwhelmed by everything that I’ve set out to do, and letting myself think about the things that no matter how hard I had already worked, had not yet achieved.
In other words, I was in the motivational danger zone.
So because I had already done my to-do list in the morning and throughout the day when I had a few ounces of motivation, I got home and just sat back, got some perspective from those I look up to, and had an early night. The evenings are my chill time / time to spend with my partner, so I’m still on track with the challenge.
Nothing that is worth having comes easy. On to another day.
Well, this weekend was the first weekend of this challenge. The weekends are my weak points when it comes to consistency. I usually like to stay flexible with my time, but this weekend I was determined to stay rigid!
I wrote up my schedule the nights before, which worked around my rostered shifts, I set my alarms and I’m really happy with how it went!
I wasn’t too sure about what little rewards to set myself for getting my to-do lists done, but after a bit contemplation I’ve decided that if I get everything done on Saturday that getting an extra hour sleep on Sunday will be my reward for this, (absolute bliss after a hard week!).
If I achieve my Sunday to-do list, my reward will be being able to partake in Pizza Sunday, which has been a standard Sunday night ritual in our house for a year or so now! It would be brutal if I had to sit this one out while my partner ate pizza in front of me, so I’d say it will be a decent “carrot” to dangle!
Note: If this is the first blog in this series that you are reading, you should read my introduction on my Day 1 post so you know what I’m raving on about!