The Artist’s Dilemma: Bills vs Passion

As I follow my heart to what is undoubtedly a more and more creative calling, a realm of possibility seems to grow exponentially with each step.

The ideas and opportunities really are endless. For the first time in my life I feel like I am only limited by my own imagination and drive (although some of this is possibly also due to my efforts to learn from as much as possible from as many successful people as possible, including their mindset).

Regardless of the why, it is both overwhelming and INCREDIBLY EXCITING! The anticipation is killing me! I am like a pot boiling on high on the stove (almost) unchecked.

I say almost because a girl’s still gotta pay her bills… And unless said girl is particularly good at her chosen practice, it is unlikely she will be able to pay her bills with any profits from it, and need to take time away from their passion to make some moolah. Being the ‘late bloomer’ that I am, I find myself in the unlikely category…. The frustration is soo real but soo common! I get it, there are soo many of us in this boat, creative and otherwise.

Gary Vee says the key to success is patience and hard work. Let’s hope so! Cause I’m all in!

Can you relate? How do you deal with it?

Stay hungry 🖤

Laveena

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Quitting School

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Dear Diary,

They say that when you’re outside of your comfort zone, that’s when you grow. This morning I realised that sometimes my comfort zone is in finishing something, even if I don’t think it’s working, just in case it does.

Yesterday I went into school thinking I should finish the last 2 months of classes, because although I had doubts about whether the remainder of the content was going to benefit me, I optimistically thought to myself that there would probably be a couple extra things I would pick up and take with me into future ventures, so I should give it a shot. Then something happened in the middle of my first class for the day.

As I sat there I realised that I was staying because I thought it ‘was the right thing to do’. Right for who? I don’t need the certificate at the end, and I have a million creative ideas building up inside of me that I could be learning about and experimenting with, that are more related to the (less mainstream) path of fashion and design that I gravitate towards.

Staying until the end was the ‘comfortable’ thing to do. I was staying to tick a box that society had given me, when I had already ticked my own (to learn as much as I could about fashion design and construction), as we had covered all of these things in the course already.

In the past I’ve had an awful habit of staying in bad situations, or situations that were a complete waste of my time, just because I wasn’t 100% sure that leaving was the right choice. It is a habit I know I need to break. There is NEVER ANY WAY OF KNOWING what the right choice is! I need to start listening to my intuition, and trusting my gut, and dealing with the fact that sometimes, I may just be wrong.

I realised that I needed to pull the plug and get moving to the next chapter of my creative journey ASAP, starting with digging out all of my half-finished projects in my workroom at home, and working up to a very exciting workshop with an established local couture designer in about a months time!! Soo freaking excited! More on that later 😉

Stay electric!

 

Laveena

Guess Who’s Back?!…. Back Again!

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#SorryNotSorry for the cliche title… because it’s GREAT to be back!

Life has been busy with study, two jobs, and trying to figure out how to launch a business but hey I found my way back eventually… For those who are interested, here’s where I’ve been:

  1. Job No. 1: after some (read MANY) expected teething issues this is now ticking along and I am finding some sort of footing.
  2. Job No. 2: is always ticking along, is always fun, and has slowly been picking up speed for the year
  3. Fashion School: The first half was AMAZING and I learned soo much, but after realising that there wasn’t much left in it for me, and the kinds of things I want to create, I decided to leave early (rather than spend another 2 months just going through the motions just to get a piece of paper at the end that I’ll never look at again!)
  4.  Business launch: Progress is slow, and there have been soo many curveballs that I never saw coming! Launching a business is not for the faint-hearted… nevertheless I have at least launched the website!…. albeit a little sparse, but there is a lot more coming… stay tuned…

With my departure from fashion school, I now plan to dedicate as much of my newly-found free time as possible to learning and practicing all the technical skills and techniques that I didn’t learn at school, and exploring my own creative whims. I’m SOOOOO EXCITED!!!

I’ve come to realise that I am drawn to the big, bold, over-the-top glam, and fantastical, so I am going to be doing much more research into costume and set design, as well as generally drawing and painting anything that tickles my fancy.

I soo look forward to sharing some of these adventures, and reading about yours. Go ahead and share below!

Stay magical, beautiful, and unapologetically hungry to see your dreams come to life ♥

 

Laveena

 

 

 

10th March 2018: Sick shaming

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Dear Diary,

I started coughing a couple days after I got back from the U.S., and over a week later I’m still going, but that’s not even the worst of it part for me.

The moment I sounded sick, the naysayers felt vindicated, and didn’t hesitate to add their “I told you so’s” and warnings that it would only get worse.

Here’s the thing… PEOPLE GET SICK… especially when they travel from New Zealand to the West Coast of the U.S. and back within a week and a half. Long travel is stressful on the body, especially when there is turbulence the whole trip, making it very hard to sleep.

I hardly ever get sick working 80 hour weeks, but as soon as I take time off to go overseas… BAM, virus. I was already sick when I went back to work…

I call this ridiculousness sick shaming. You get sick, then people want to point the finger at you and say you brought it on yourself. It makes them feel better about their decision not to chase their own dreams.

Even if I did think that this cough was from working too much (which I don’t), I’d say it’s a small price to pay to start living my dreams by the end of this year rather than in 10 years time (or ever if you want to play it by the naysayers rulebook). It was worth every penny and cough to go to Las Vegas, network with a bunch of equally motivated people, and learn from those who have achieved the things I want.

Stay crazy,

 

Laveena

 

7th March 2018: Good sick?

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Dear Diary,

Instead of just thinking about my most promising business idea of late, I decided to jump in, start sending out queries, and get the ball rolling! Even the simple act of probing manufacturers for information made me soo excited/anxious I feel a little sick!… In a good way?

There’s also the doubt though… is my idea good enough? Is it any better than anyone else’s? Will it stand out from the crowd, or is my idea just not as exciting as I thought it was? Am I overestimating my talent?

Then there’s the other side… What’s the worst that can happen? I have to troll through manufacturers getting samples on my own dime, potentially waste a bunch of the few spare hours I have, and have to deal with knowing that there are some that will get satisfaction out of my failure?

My rational side convinced me that I could potentially waste my time and money in my spare time, and cop negativity from people regardless of what I’m doing, so I might as well ignore my emotional side and jump in… I’m soo nervous! It’s such small potatoes in the great scheme of things, but I have to start somewhere!

Stay frantic,

 

Laveena

 

6th March 2018: I ♥ Change

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Dear Diary,

It’s only Tuesday, but what a week it’s been!

It has been officially announced that Job No. 1 (my day job) is changing, and I am gradually moving to a new team, which will hopefully provide more of a challenge (always looking to learn more!).

I’m LOVING FASHION SCHOOL!!! I wish I had taken the plunge sooner! We had our first construction class today, and man, soo many ideas, soo little time. There is something about the act of creating that GIVES ME LIFE…. I am looking forward to seeing what will come of such a short course.

I can’t remember if I already mentioned that I have been offered work experience with a couture fashion designer?! (AKA a couturier). Soo very excited about this! Although I’m yet to start, and don’t have a whole lot of time to fit this in, but we’ll see what comes of it! There is soo much about the industry that can only be picked up by working in it. ESPECIALLY in haute couture, which I am particularly drawn to…

Every day, I can feel the hunger to grow my dream empire grow, and with it, my ideas on how to do it. With each prospect, comes more anxiety about what could go wrong, but I know I just have to do it. I know how much it sucks to just settle, so I just need to get on with it and go all in.

I am still rundown, which is a pain because it’s hard to do yoga without coughing and spluttering so I’ve had to take time out. Sigh. At least I am actually getting better… just slowly.
Stay magical,

 

Laveena

2nd March 2018: Reality

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Dear Diary,

I’ve been home for just over a day now. I had a class yesterday that I was thoroughly unprepared for since I haven’t been able to attend, so I have a heap to catch up on this weekend.

The jet lag hit me yesterday afternoon like a ton of bricks, and it was a real battle not to fall asleep on top of my homework. I’m now tired and rundown, complete with persistent dry cough and a coldsore (gross).

Dreams don’t come for free though, and I don’t have time to be sick. I have a 14 hour shift today at Job No. 2, study, and a business idea to crack on with. My empire awaits… LET’S DO THIS!

Stay determined,

 

Laveena