I’m beginning to realise that the key to realise that the key to getting where I want to go may lie in letting go.
Letting go of the little things that aren’t directly connected to my dreams, and accepting that the rest of my life may not look or feel at all perfect. I have been soo caught up in messages from successful people about creating a culture and standard for yourself in all aspects of your life. But lately it occurred to me that if I just concentrated my efforts to detail while working on my dreams in order to succeed, that success while make room in my life to worry about the rest later. Because worrying about whether I get my washing done on schedule every Saturday on schedule each week sure wasn’t helping me focus on the important things.
More importantly, it opened up much larger and much more productive chunks of time where I could focus solely on working on my dreams, and GET SHIT done, rather than stopping and starting on lots of little things all day. In my eyes a whole Saturday focused on design or sewing up an idea is much more productive than housework, which could be slotted in elsewhere throughout the week.
I guess it’s about pioritising first while I’m still in a startup phase, and trying to do everything myself!
Do what works for you, listen to the advice of other’s but evaluate whether it’s appropriate for you and accept or reject at will. It’s your life, only you know what’s going to work best for you.
I left fashion school because I didn’t think there was much left in it for me, and I felt like I was creatively STARVING, so it makes sense that I should jump head long in to my next creative adventure!
I want to create amazing over-the-top pieces, so I thought it was only natural to look into some local theater groups… and found one! It also just so happened that they were having a sign up night a few nights after I messaged them, so I got to go and start from the very beginning of the show process with everyone else. Some would say the stars are aligned!
I joined the group thinking that I could be involved with costumes, dressing, makeup and any other backstage bits that need to be done for the show, and may have left with my arm slightly twisted into filling a small role… it is yet to be determined what that will look like…
Regardless of what type of role it turns out to be, I am terrified! But I know I need to get used to the stage if I ever want to perform musically at least! Plus confidence under pressure and on stage never hurt for overall personal development…
The show must go on!
They say that when you’re outside of your comfort zone, that’s when you grow. This morning I realised that sometimes my comfort zone is in finishing something, even if I don’t think it’s working, just in case it does.
Yesterday I went into school thinking I should finish the last 2 months of classes, because although I had doubts about whether the remainder of the content was going to benefit me, I optimistically thought to myself that there would probably be a couple extra things I would pick up and take with me into future ventures, so I should give it a shot. Then something happened in the middle of my first class for the day.
As I sat there I realised that I was staying because I thought it ‘was the right thing to do’. Right for who? I don’t need the certificate at the end, and I have a million creative ideas building up inside of me that I could be learning about and experimenting with, that are more related to the (less mainstream) path of fashion and design that I gravitate towards.
Staying until the end was the ‘comfortable’ thing to do. I was staying to tick a box that society had given me, when I had already ticked my own (to learn as much as I could about fashion design and construction), as we had covered all of these things in the course already.
In the past I’ve had an awful habit of staying in bad situations, or situations that were a complete waste of my time, just because I wasn’t 100% sure that leaving was the right choice. It is a habit I know I need to break. There is NEVER ANY WAY OF KNOWING what the right choice is! I need to start listening to my intuition, and trusting my gut, and dealing with the fact that sometimes, I may just be wrong.
I realised that I needed to pull the plug and get moving to the next chapter of my creative journey ASAP, starting with digging out all of my half-finished projects in my workroom at home, and working up to a very exciting workshop with an established local couture designer in about a months time!! Soo freaking excited! More on that later 😉
I have a 70’s themed Christmas party to attend tonight (although it’s technically a Studio 54 theme, but hey rules are made to be broken… especially in the 70’s punk scene!).
Anywho, I thought I’d give a faux mohawk a go! I teased and sprayed it liberally with lacquer, and here are the results…
It’s a little more wavy than I was aiming for but honestly I quite liked it a little different than the usual! I also think my ashy regrowth worked quite well with it too because it looked like I had intentionally only bleached the hawk 😉 win!