7th March 2018: Good sick?


Dear Diary,

Instead of just thinking about my most promising business idea of late, I decided to jump in, start sending out queries, and get the ball rolling! Even the simple act of probing manufacturers for information made me soo excited/anxious I feel a little sick!… In a good way?

There’s also the doubt though… is my idea good enough? Is it any better than anyone else’s? Will it stand out from the crowd, or is my idea just not as exciting as I thought it was? Am I overestimating my talent?

Then there’s the other side… What’s the worst that can happen? I have to troll through manufacturers getting samples on my own dime, potentially waste a bunch of the few spare hours I have, and have to deal with knowing that there are some that will get satisfaction out of my failure?

My rational side convinced me that I could potentially waste my time and money in my spare time, and cop negativity from people regardless of what I’m doing, so I might as well ignore my emotional side and jump in… I’m soo nervous! It’s such small potatoes in the great scheme of things, but I have to start somewhere!

Stay frantic,





12th Feb 2018: Day 1 of Fashion School


Dear Diary,

I know that the practical step would have been to wait until the next school intake, when I had had more time to prepare for classes, and continue to work on my skills until then. But something in my GUT told me that this was the right path, and that the timing would never be perfect.

I also had the sneaking suspicion that if I had decided to wait 6 months to a year for the next intake, that I would regret the lost time. After all, I’ve waited YEARS to give this a go, why wait any longer? Sure it was going to be hard work, but I’ve never been scared of that, and it was always going to be hard.

Except it wasn’t that hard. It was INCREDIBLY interesting! The time flew by, and I think any nerves that my boss might have had about me not being constantly in the office seemed to dissipate as it became obvious that people didn’t even notice I wasn’t at my desk for a large chunk of what would be considered “normal” working hours (although there were plenty of other crazies working late to catch up on things so it would seem I’m not the only super busy person!).

I’m VERY excited about my first pattern making class today… BRING IT ON!

Stay electric,