Quitting School

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Dear Diary,

They say that when you’re outside of your comfort zone, that’s when you grow. This morning I realised that sometimes my comfort zone is in finishing something, even if I don’t think it’s working, just in case it does.

Yesterday I went into school thinking I should finish the last 2 months of classes, because although I had doubts about whether the remainder of the content was going to benefit me, I optimistically thought to myself that there would probably be a couple extra things I would pick up and take with me into future ventures, so I should give it a shot. Then something happened in the middle of my first class for the day.

As I sat there I realised that I was staying because I thought it ‘was the right thing to do’. Right for who? I don’t need the certificate at the end, and I have a million creative ideas building up inside of me that I could be learning about and experimenting with, that are more related to the (less mainstream) path of fashion and design that I gravitate towards.

Staying until the end was the ‘comfortable’ thing to do. I was staying to tick a box that society had given me, when I had already ticked my own (to learn as much as I could about fashion design and construction), as we had covered all of these things in the course already.

In the past I’ve had an awful habit of staying in bad situations, or situations that were a complete waste of my time, just because I wasn’t 100% sure that leaving was the right choice. It is a habit I know I need to break. There is NEVER ANY WAY OF KNOWING what the right choice is! I need to start listening to my intuition, and trusting my gut, and dealing with the fact that sometimes, I may just be wrong.

I realised that I needed to pull the plug and get moving to the next chapter of my creative journey ASAP, starting with digging out all of my half-finished projects in my workroom at home, and working up to a very exciting workshop with an established local couture designer in about a months time!! Soo freaking excited! More on that later 😉

Stay electric!

 

Laveena

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6th March 2018: I ♥ Change

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Dear Diary,

It’s only Tuesday, but what a week it’s been!

It has been officially announced that Job No. 1 (my day job) is changing, and I am gradually moving to a new team, which will hopefully provide more of a challenge (always looking to learn more!).

I’m LOVING FASHION SCHOOL!!! I wish I had taken the plunge sooner! We had our first construction class today, and man, soo many ideas, soo little time. There is something about the act of creating that GIVES ME LIFE…. I am looking forward to seeing what will come of such a short course.

I can’t remember if I already mentioned that I have been offered work experience with a couture fashion designer?! (AKA a couturier). Soo very excited about this! Although I’m yet to start, and don’t have a whole lot of time to fit this in, but we’ll see what comes of it! There is soo much about the industry that can only be picked up by working in it. ESPECIALLY in haute couture, which I am particularly drawn to…

Every day, I can feel the hunger to grow my dream empire grow, and with it, my ideas on how to do it. With each prospect, comes more anxiety about what could go wrong, but I know I just have to do it. I know how much it sucks to just settle, so I just need to get on with it and go all in.

I am still rundown, which is a pain because it’s hard to do yoga without coughing and spluttering so I’ve had to take time out. Sigh. At least I am actually getting better… just slowly.
Stay magical,

 

Laveena